Before we move on from the topic of cancer …because no news is no news until I have the results of a second biopsy that’ll determine if I have my whole thyroid removed or just half of it.
… some thoughts.
After the news last Wednesday, if anyone asked me how I felt, the only honest answer I had was ‘surreal’.
My personal world had radically changed, but the greater world had not – surreal.
I discovered there was a tiny part of me, probably left over from those ‘teenagers are immortal’ days when our incredibly rash actions didn’t actually kill us, that still believed that I might get out of this mortal coil alive – surreal (and how disappointing to realise that damn cliché is true!)
I’ve had 10 major surgeries in my adult life (to put my knee back together again) and in a few months from now I’ll willingly choose to go ‘under the knife’ again, and yes it’s a saving of my life choice, but seriously, who the bloody hell chooses to have their bodies cut open and bits of their viscera removed? – surreal
I’m not ill, I don’t feel sick, but yet, here I am with a life threatening disease – surreal.
Thankfully the Cone of Surrealness only lasted until Friday night when it cracked wide open and I cried, and sobbed, and howled, and raged.
Mrs Widdershins was there to hold me and say all the right things, and supply tissues.
Widdercat rightfully concluded that purrs were not needed at that time and waited until the storm had passed before joining us for cuddles.
So, here I am, on the other side of ‘surreal’ and getting on with life.
“Getting ahead in a difficult profession requires avid faith in yourself. That is why some people with mediocre talent, but with great inner drive, go so much further than people with vastly superior talent” – Sophia Loren, actor.