Nope, not a chance in hell!
Day 1: Time came back into focus for me at around 4pm. I was still anesthetized from the waist down, (from the spinal anesthetic) so of course I thought to myself, “This isn’t too bad.”
Nope, Not a chance in hell.
A little while later I began to shake, (and not the Shake, Rattle, and Roll kinda shaking) the kind of shaking that almost lifted me off the bed. They told me it was a not-uncommon reaction to the anesthetic. “OK,” I remember thinking, “This can’t get all that bad.”
Nope. Not a chance in hell.
2 hours later I was still shaking and the spinal anesthetic was starting to wear off. I could feel my knee. I. COULD. REALLY. FEEL. MY. KNEE!
The painkillers started coming, (I finally ended up with medical grade fentanyl) and the pain receded to a dull roaring somewhere off to my left. I could sorta-kinda feel my toes. “Well,” I thought, “All things considered, this isn’t too bad.”
Nope. Not a chance in hell.
It was just the beginning. More painkillers, the same ones, different ones, I really didn’t pay too much attention, what with the pain and the shaking and the biting-of-a-thousand-bull-ants pins-and-needles feeling. (Ask any Aussie what being bitten by just one bull ant feels like)
A feeling, I might add, that hadn’t quite made it to my bladder. Although I hadn’t had anything to drink since half-past-nine that morning you can guess what happened next.
8pm: A change of sheets, and the painkillers, having finally rendered me almost incoherent, had curtailed the shaking. The return of sensation to the lower half of my body continued unabated.
Would I be going home today?
Nope. Not a chance in hell.
10pm: I finally left ‘Recovery’ and me and my bed were trundled through myriad doors and strange shadowy corridors.
Like many small town hospitals that grew as the town grew this one had all sorts of add-ons added-on at all sorts of strange angles. I’m sure it made sense to someone who wasn’t drug-addled, but my trundling did seem to go on for an extraordinarily long time.
I ended up in a shared ward (room) with a huge picture window to look out of. I gazed out at the lights of Downtown Prince George, all sparkling in the night air, and, although drugged, and exhausted from four hours of shaking, all-in-all, I thought, not too bad.
For the rest of the night every two hours painkillers were either injected into my I.V. or proffered in little plastic cups for me to swallow.
Day 2: For the first half of the day the only change to the above routine I can recall is the view through my window changing from night to day, from pretty lights to a parking lot with some nice greenery …

Not too bad
Some time that afternoon several physiotherapists showed up one after another, imparting assorted bits of physiotherapy-ish wisdom. I nodded intelligibly, I think, and the last pair hoisted me up out of bed until I was standing, albeit very shakily, on my own two feet.
(In theory, the surgical procedure is such that one can bear one’s full weight on it from the get go and bugger off into the sunset. I think this might be where the whole ‘Day Surgery’, thing comes from, because I can imagine some 20-year-old Olympic athlete being able to bounce out of bed and out the door in a single day … but not this beat-up sixty-five-year-old)
I did however, have a moment of glory – I hobbled to the bathroom and peed without immediate supervision. I tell you, it’s on such little things that great joy is built.
However, was I up to leaving the hospital under my own steam?
Nope. Not a chance in hell.
That evening, having not eaten since midnight on Sunday, I was looking forward to dinner, (the hospital food was actually really good, another benefit of a small hospital doing its own catering) when I cast mine eyes up and espied the, probably-never-used-in-the-last-ten-years, TV set. Obviously installed before the latest iteration of curtain rails had been oh-so-strategically placed …

The view from my bed – works perfectly if one is viewing a three-way split-screen action scene, I’m sure
That second night passed much the same as the first, apart from my medications arriving every three hours instead of two.
Day 3: If I was able to manage a bit of stair-climbing then my bunch of physiotherapists would declare me fit to go home.
I was quite astonished, in all truth, at how much my actual knee joint didn’t hurt. (relatively speaking) All the muscles and ligaments and tendons were of course protesting mightily, but not the joint itself so much.
There’s not much left to tell – I passed Stair-Climbing with flying colours. Mrs Widds (my wonderful Heroine of Heroines) picked up an impressive bundle of medications from the pharmacy for me to take home, I signed my ‘get out of jail free’ papers, and off we went.
Mrs Widds informed me that all the kattens had been confused and concerned by my prolonged absence, (we’d never spent a day apart from the moment they were born, let alone three) so, of course, they proceeded to ignore me the minute I walked in the door.
It was only a temporary punishment though.
I’d got settled in and was sitting on the edge of my bed having a really good howl, (a release of the pain and stress and unknowns and all sorts of other unidentifiable emotions) when all five of them very gently came and sat on the bed with me. They didn’t crowd, or demand, or want my attention, they simply were with me.
I was home.
-oOo-
It’s only today (Monday) that I’ve felt free enough of the pain medications (still taking a plethora of them, but of a much milder variety now) and the pain itself, to be able to contemplate even turning my computer on.
Thank you to everyone who left comments on my last post, and sent me emails. Each and every one truly made a difference. 😊
I can feel my brain slipping sideways as I type these last words, so, this is it for me … a long post, I know, but it’s been so nice to feel that I’m back in my body and all is functioning (mostly) as it should.
Apologies for typos, etc. You should’a seen this post before I edited it! 😊